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[Aug. 19th, 2007|06:48 pm] |
As the days grow shorter and
the nights longer and colder
I cannot help feeling like
the leaves I am scatered and
alone I am being blown into
the crevices in the sidewalk
by your icey chill I am stuck
there waiting for you to come
dig me out I am hoping that
you are the wind that will
lift me up once more |
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[Jul. 30th, 2007|08:35 am] |
I feel an awkward calm right now. I am nervous about what is happening tomorrow but I am ready. I needed to let out all of my tears of fear and frustration about everything and I did, you saw it. Now I feel like this is just something I have to deal with and I cannot be weak towards it. For anyone who reads this, which is probably no one and doesnt really know what I'm talking about here it is - I have a common disease named Hashimotos Disease. My immune system is attacking my thyroid and I have a small lump on my left thyroid. Tomorrow I will have needle injected into my neck to remove fluid from the lump to see if it is canceres. It's really hard for me even to say that since it completely freaks me out to think about it but maybe that shows that I am ready for this. (As ready as I could be.) I am proud of myself and you might think thats cheesey but thats just fine with me. I know how big this is for me.
The past two weeks have really been just a roller coster for me. I have a job. I still need another. I know how happy we are and what we can deal with together, as a team. I know I havent been anything great in anyones eyes, especialy my parents and yours, and I am sorry if I have been too much of a free loader. I am going on vacation. School is free. I wish my Dad could talk to me.
Now completely different - livejournal has this thing now called "writers block" maybe its dumb but it will probably keep me writing as I will have something to think about.
If I received $100 this afternoon I would give fifty towards Awstins XM and half towards vacation.
Ohh life, youre one hell of a ride. |
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[Jul. 26th, 2007|02:06 pm] |
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So no tour but fucking great vacation coming up! |
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